Well, Well, Well, if It Isn’t The Consequences of My Own Actions

Final grades for the summer semester came out last week. Even though I mainly talked about the one class that I was struggling in, I was actually taking 2 classes. I’m not sure if I mentioned that before, but this will be a crucial part of this story.

I’ve also mentioned before that I’m an officer for my club/frat/honors society. It’s a club based on my major so it would be really beneficial to my career. I don’t really want a job in my career since I’m only getting this degree to get my parents off my back, but I thought there wouldn’t be any harm done by just joining a club. Honestly, since going the club it has opened a LOT of opportunities for me like internships, job openings, or some student-work thing. I just haven’t really utilized any of it because, again, I’m just here to get this degree and then go back to being a grocery store clerk.

Anyways, so my position in the club is “Vice President of Event Coordination”. It basically means for all the professional events, I would be the one to book the venue, decorate the place, call up caterers, invite the professionals/sponsors/alumni of the club, and hire photographers for the event.

Why did I accept this position? Because I can’t say no. During election night, I was nominated for some other positions, but since I saw others declining their own nominations, that gave me courage to say no, too. However, after election night, I guess no one wanted the role of VP of Event Coordination, so the president asked me separately if I would take it. Thats when my deteriorating social skills began to emerge again, and in such a confined and close space, I couldn’t say no. She very well could’ve done that to all the other members out of desperation and I was the idiot that agreed. It sounded like a terrible position in the beginning, and thats why none of the other members wanted it, but my inability to stand up for myself got the better of me.

So, what happens next? Do I just suck it up and take the job? No. I self-sabotage. One of the strict criteria for being a member (because it is a ‘honors society’ and all) is to have a cumulative GPA of our concentration courses to be a 3.0 or higher. For example, if I’m a computer science major, the club won’t acknowledge my A+ in creative writing or an A+ in Gender Studies 101, the club will only be interested in the grades for the classes I took that directly relate to my major.

That being said, remember how I had 2 classes over the summer. They both relate to my concentration. One of the classes, the one I’ve been struggling on for the past month, I got a C. The second class, I had an A+. So this, accumulated with my previous courses, would still leave my GPA to be over a 3.0. For the second class, I still had a project I needed to turn in that was worth 25% of my grade, so even though I already started the project, I just…didn’t turn it in. It was supposed to turn my A+ into a C-, but I guess the professor pitied me or something and gave me a B-. Still, it was enough to lower my GPA to a 2.94.

After a couple of days, I messaged the President to let her know of the ‘bad news’. Guess what she responded with…

“That's fine! We can just put you on probation and you can still be part of the club!”…WHAT???

So, I did all of that FOR NOTHING??? I now have a low GPA and am still an officer for the club WHEN I DIDN’T EVEN WANT TO JOIN THE CLUB IN THE FIRST PLACE. The whole reason I joined was to initially make more friends at school, since I’m kind of a loner there. I saw the words “honors society” in the banner and didn’t think my application would actually go through because being honest, I’m really dumb (as is evident in this entire situation).

This is another case of “well if it isn’t the consequences of my own actions”.

TLDR: I tried to quit my club by lowering my GPA but it didn’t work.