Embarrassingly Unexperienced

I…don’t know how to kiss. Other than a simple peck, I don’t know what to do. I’ve had sex before, but oddly, I think kissing is more special and intimate. So, although I’ve had sex with 4 people so far, I’ve only kissed 2. At this time, it’s been 4 years since I last made out with anyone. This is making me so scared. The first guy I kissed was my first boyfriend. We were both each other’s firsts so we didn’t know what we were doing or if we were even doing it right. We made out a lot but it didn’t ~feel~ right. The second guy I kissed was just like a simple peck and just softly making out.

After him, I haven’t kissed anyone since. I’ve had sex with people after Guy #2 but I didn’t kiss them. I somehow think that if I kiss someone, I’ll get attached to them and I’m NOT trying to do that with guys I’m just friends-with-benefits with. Now, I’m 22, and have ZERO clue on how to makeout. Hookup culture is at its prime right. I hear stories left and right about people just having easy one night stands and this is making me even more scared. It makes me think that everyone else has so much experience and practice except for me. It worries me that since I don’t know how to make out, the next time a guy wants to kiss me, he’ll be turned off when he realizes I don’t know what I’m doing. The longer I go not kissing someone, the more anxious I feel for when the time does come.

I’m not writing this out to ask you guys for tips (cause I think that’s kinda weird in my opinion), I’m just here to vent out my confusions.

TLDR: I’m a prude and this is my consequence.